What Anxiety Really Feels Like
Many people suffer from anxiety, so why is it still such a taboo topic? And although it’s normal to get a little anxious from time to time, people who suffer from anxiety disorder have uncontrollable feelings of worry that affects their day to day lives. It’s basically the mean girl in your head that much like a bully, takes over you not just mentally but physically as well. It’s sweaty hands and a racing heart! It’s a heavy chest and a feeling of impending doom! It’s… awful!
As someone who has dealt with anxiety most of my life, here’s what it feels like for me.
Sometimes I ‘check out’ mentally and it’s super annoying cuz I want to be a part of the conversation but I can’t focus enough to join in. I can see you talking but can’t even hear the words you’re saying. My anxiety is causing my mind to race a mile a min. It feels like the room is closing in on me. I’m over-thinking about how overwhelming this is and jumping to conclusions about what you’re thinking about me. I’m probably intimidated by how confident you seem and I’m wishing i could be so comfortable. 😕 How nice it must be for this all to come so naturally for you. How nice it must be to not have anxiety.
What Anxiety Feels Like
When I don’t come across as rude I can come across as an awkward 🤦♀️ babbling idiot that cuts people off when they’re talking. Not because I don’t care what you’re saying, it’s cuz I’m so anxious I can’t shut the erf up! Anxiety is something awful!
I’m usually fiddling with something in my hands. This way I have something else to focus on in order to distract me… not from you, but from me. The mind is such a powerful thing, and your thoughts and feelings are literally everything.
I also have a tendency to cancel plans if I’m having a bad day. It’s not that I don’t want to see you. I do, but the thought of going to a social event drains me.
Sometimes I’d honestly rather be known as a mean girl, than have to explain my anxiety.
I have plenty of good days too, where I’m ‘normal’ish lol 😂 it’s not all bad! Here’s some things that help me deal:)
Talking about my anxiety doesn’t really help me much to be honest.
I’ve discovered a few things that help me get through the tough times. Obviously talk to your doc before taking any medication or vitamins… I’m no doctor!!
Vitamin d- my doctor has told me that there’s a link between low vitamin d levels and increased anxiety and depression, which makes sense cuz January is a really tough time for many anxiety sufferers. So I started taking vitamin d supplements and I’ve noticed a little impact on my mood;)
Vitamin b complex! I had blood work reveal i was deficient in some of the b vitamins which was part of the reason why I was feeling so down and crappy! Started taking a b complex and it is helping my anxiety a little:)
Self care:) this has the greatest short term effect! A little retail therapy, a box of chocolate covered cherries or dinner and a movie with friends all helps me so much! Sometimes I go a little overboard and eat an entire tub of ice cream or spend $400 at atlas divine and almost immediately regret my decisions… Also, some physical exercise and meditation are great! Oh and sleep. Good sleeping habits are life changing when it comes to your mental health- anxiety and depression.
Buuuuuut even with the vitamins and self care, if you still have ups and downs you might want to talk to your doctor about prescription medication. Don’t be afraid to get help. There’s a stigma around mental illness. We fear people will think we are weird or violent if we come out with our anxiety or depression. Don’t let those fears stop you from getting better!
If you have anxiety, depression, ptsd, bi polar or any mental health issues follow along and know you’re not alone:) I’m over here suffering too!